Nineteen

Yeah, I haven’t written in a while. I hope to do better; the Blogger’s Paradox is, the more interesting stuff you have going on in your life, the less time you have to write about it. And trust me when I say things have been very interesting around here, what with surviving summer vacation with two boys who can’t play together for more than 10 minutes without telling each other they’re not going to be each other’s friends anymore, and a two-year-old hellbent on escaping our house and hurling himself headlong into danger, and all with my therapist out on maternity leave. And of course, just when we got our summer under control, poof! it was back-to-school time — for two out of three boys, and for me: I’ve started back on the bachelor’s degree I abandoned ten years ago.

So: things are interesting around here, for sure. Air-quotes interesting, even: “interesting.” I’d even go so far as to say “interesting” like that, in italics. THAT’s the kind of fall it’s shaping up to be, and I hope to make writing a more regular part of my schedule now that kids are back in school — but you know me: don’t count on it.

The other reason I made it back here today, of all days, is because it’s a grim anniversary in my life: 19 years ago today, on Friday the 13th of September, 1991, my mom died of cancer. I miss her a lot — an inexpressibly huge amount — I wish she were still a part of my life, of my boys’ lives. It’s unbelievable that I’ve now lived nearly twice as many years without her as I lived with her. I wish I had more time with her, had a chance to know her better. I wish she were still here.

Here are some pictures, starting with Mom and me at the 1982 World’s Fair in Knoxville:

I love this next picture, from spring of 1983, because it’s such a great shot of my mom as a human being: I’m wearing one of those toddler leashes. Which I fully confess to having used on my own escapist children:

A family portrait from the fall of 1983:

And finally, here’s my mom from 1986. She was lovely:

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1 Response to “Nineteen”


  1. 1 suburbanink September 14, 2010 at 3:01 pm

    I think this is beautiful. Your mom was very beautiful. Thank you for sharing a memory of her with us today.


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